3/5/09

Annoyance&Frustration
----has led to loneliness.
Sadness&Confusion
----has led to tears.
Pride&Dignity
----has led to no confrontantion

.....

there is a girl who loved once
she cared and made an effort
she devoted time to another, something she can't spare

There is a guy whom SHE loved
but it wasnt equivalent
HE loved through actions(when face to face)
---not when it mattered most---

.....

she BELIEVEs he is the one
she rather be none, if they aren't one.
(she breaks into two)
Her heart is in the form of glass, that has now----broken into ten seperate pieces
....She walks away not caring about
Her Happiness
Only His
.........................................................He looks at his mistake
Gathering the pieces; he makes his way to her

She glides gracefully by herself with the color of sadness wrapping her body.
She can't look at him in his eyes.
There is nothing she has to say
In attempt to make her whole, he gathers the jagged particles, that becomes stained with the blood from his flesh.
He grabs her; consoling her placing her heart in his form in her hands.
She looks up, not acknowledging herself in him
Her soul becomes lifted, a heaven is released; as she climbs from the ladders of hell
He leaves, she dies..

Shadow

A woman named Neveah walks through the sand, alone.
Every step taken, gives the sense of agony in her leg muscles.
She looks down as she walks, afraid to look up at the emptiness.
In a quick second she hears a call.
Not understanding what was said, she instantly looks up.
The scorching heat beaming from the sunlight makes her squint continously in order to attempt to catch a glimpse of the one who called.
She looks all around; there is nothing or no one.
Her hope of ridding this loneliness has been crushed.
Continuing to look down as she travels further and further into a road of nothingness.
She silently questions herself on what that call was?
What did it mean?
As she trudges along this melted crushed glass, dreading every step that leads to this no where.
She plops on the dirt, making dust particles of crystal float gracefully upward to painted whites in the sky.
Sighing out loud, asking the utmost High "Why have you left me with no ration"
Her concern goes unanswered for days....
As time goes on she loses count of how many days that has gone by since the incident.
At last after a jolt of lightning hits, an image of a man appears almost secretly, and points to a clock that immediately strikes seven.
The woman runs frantically to the designated spot.
She stumbles in desperation to reach it in time, feeling that it will soon leave.
She doesn't call out in fear that it will become frightened and threatened.
The idea of a man makes her feel safe and accompanied.
As she reaches the spot, she stops to talk, suddenly having an urge of fear to speak of her name.
The gray shaded figure glares at the woman with a look of disgust.
She pleads through her streaks of tears slowly flowing down her red cheeks for any kind of remorse.
It calls out "Heaven".
She recognizes it, as what she heard before.
Closing her eyes, reminiscing on all the privileges and advantages that comes with this fantasy world.
Finally opening her eyes everything becomes hazy, and erases itself.
She is left, alone in nothing but darkness, standing next to a man in white, holding out his hand, smiling.

Inside

I'm not a person
I'm not an object
I'm not a topic
Just a thought.
That can either make you or break you
I love evil, hate good
I linger throughout the mind, destroying the ability of you being able to think on your own.
Most hate me, others love me
I control individuality
It thrills me how when I am thought of I am always feared, positively or negatively.
I decide who remains close in your life.
I decide your style, you may think you have control, please.....
Free will is in the eye of the beholder
I'm the one that "holds" it for you
You are useless without me.
You will fail if you don't have faith in me.
What are you without me????
NOTHING!
If I leave you, you are extinct.
I am a person!!
I am an object!!
I am a topic!!
I am a thought!!
I am your confindence, the "monster" within your soul, your spirit, your mind; that decides your fate and destiny......